Need advice

[CRW]

Thanks for the advice everyone. I am trying to make myself sparse, but then she immediately complains that I am not communicating about the kids enough, so it is kind of a tough line I am walking right now.

A little more background on my situation. I had changed into a very negative person the last year of our marriage. I would say I stayed the way until about 6 weeks ago. I honestly feel like I had a spiritual awakening, and am so much happier than I was. So I would say because of that, I have pulled a legitimate and sincere 180. things are really far gone, as in we are separated and have already filed. However, since my 180, she has shown interest again in what I am up to and some of the lightheartedness and humor has returned. then last weekend she and I were texting about the kids, and for some reason in the middle of the night I texted her and said, 'want to talk'. She said 'not right now, what's up'. I just said not to worry about it and told her goodnight. She called me first thing the next morning asking what I wanted to talk about though, and seemed disappointed when I said 'just more about the kids'. Now, I really am not sure what I wanted to talk to her about, I just wanted to talk to her I guess.

Long story short, things are very far along towards getting divorced, but is it too far gone? I hope not, because I truly love her. My 180, while strengthening me 10 fold, also made me realize that I do still love her. It also made me understand what that really means, when I don't think I got it before.


I'd love to hear thoughts from others.

thanks
Craig