I am so incredibly sorry that you are feeling this way right now.

You should contact you doc again as soon as you can and tell him/her what's going on, even with the meds on board. They need to rule out a paradoxical reaction to the meds, or possible need for a different med or dosage.

Remember, you are not broken. You are hurting. Your life has been turned upside down, but you are still a whole person.

Know that you can't put a schedule on your reactions/grief/emotions. You want it over and resolved by yesterday (we all do), but our hearts don't work that way, and neither do our spouses'. You've had your heart broken, and you are living with incredible uncertainty in your life. That is so much harder than trying to deal with a single adverse event.

I'm pulling for you today. (and all days, but especially today)


H: 44, Me: 45
Married: 20 y Together: 25 y
no kids
Walk away: 12/15
Asked for temp separation 12/25/15
PA confirmed 3/16 (apparently neither the first, nor the last PA he has had)
H filed for D 5/16