Why do I have so much trouble believing that. He must've been very unhappy with me to walk out on his kids and find ow a better option.
I am so down on myself. I know . I can't snap out of it. At work I put on this great act ( I'm a teacher) and in front of the kids but at home , especially when I am at home on my own ( which I am this weekend) I just feel so crappy.
Just keep thinking of all the things I maybe should've done.
After 20 years together what did I do or not do that made him this unhappy to do this to me and our kids. What gets me is everything we have been through together and when it comes to it ow makes him unhappy and his history with me doesn't.
