I am not sure what is going on. I felt great yesterday, and when I went to sleep I was good, but at 2 am I woke up and the waves started rolling in.
I have taken another this morning about an hour ago, but it does not seem to be kicking in. Still shaking like a leaf right now
I am just trying to dig deep and muster all the strength I can to function here at work right now..... Damn this nightmare, the war with the demons inside me is taking a toll.
I know what I want to do and be, but the run away train in my mind and body is heading to the end of the track at a terminal speed right now. I never imagined being in this situation and feeling like I have no control of myself. Groan....it is very painful to say the least .
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
