I just realized you might feel like you can't change, and if you feel that way I can see the benefit of subscribing to the above beliefs.

But you can change. You've grown a lot over the last 9 months. You've done well on your 180s and have grown more independent, less needy, more compassionate, and so much more.

It's not fair to yourself to measure yourself at your absolute worst and use that as proof you are a failure. That's negativity. Do your 180 and recognize the growth you've achieved and have faith you'll continue to get stronger and healthier. The only way you won't is if you stop believing in yourself. I never doubt you for a moment. We aren't giving up on you J, you don't either!


Me:38 XW:38
T:11 years M:8 years
Kids: S14, D11, D7
BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15