Ups and Downs (III)

[Zues126]

People are horrible. Myself included.

Yes, they are. I am horrible too J.

I was going to try to say "people only seem horrible if our expectations are unrealistic" and talk about why we need to believe the world and the people in it should be some other way that they are not.

But I feel the way you do quite often too J.

I drove 90 miles to meet with a customer that no-showed his appointment today.
Yesterday a guy berated me for an HOUR on the phone for an issue he had with my service that had nothing to do with me, and however legitimate his concern was the fact that he would treat me so disrespectfully and bully me and shame me and bulldoze me, it was disgusting.
My XW tore apart my family too.

All pretty sick. So I keep to myself, because sometimes I feel it is the only way to protect myself and protect others from myself. It is fatiguing how fallen we are.

So I too am working on accepting reality. It's hard, because reality means that I may never get the partner I want, I may never have the life I wanted, etc. But little by little I'm learning that life isn't about me getting what I want, it's about me doing the best I can in the midst of the suffering we endure, and if we do that there are moments in the middle that are pretty alright.

Sorry I'm rambling J, nothing here is that valuable to you now, just know that my rambling is the only way I have to show that I'm here with you.