WAW still behaving angry and moving to divorce

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Thank you V, Cherry and Phoebe. I so appreciate the support and insights you have shared.

I met with my PCP today and he gave me something to help with the anxiety attacks and while I very much shy a way from meds of any kind (I like to have the old body heal itself when possible ) I was a mess when I arrived at my appointment. I felt of sound mind, but the limbs were shaking like no other. I still only took half a dose, and I gotta say, today has been one of the best days that I have had in awhile. I'm not saying that I want to be taking them constantly, but to feel back in control both mentally and physically was refreshing today.


I even had a conversation with the WAW this evening that started to head down a tense road, but my ability to not only sound in control, but also look in control certainly had a positive outcome. She even came back and spoke civilly with a slight hint of respect. This was a small win that I am chalking up to maintaining my cool both in mind, body and spirit.

If I can maintain this state for a couple more days then I can grieve the loss while being Able to incorporate the full plan with GAL, detachment and focus on those areas of myself to be the man that only a fool would leave. And the best part will be the time with my girls that I can make the most special of bonds and create a future that we can all be proud off and enjoy.

My D17 graduates from high school in a month. I gotta make that so special that it may lighten the smudge this mess will make on the memory. That is the challenge that I want to take on, because she so deserves it.