MLC W with OM, Part 12

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I was thinking about you today, Wet and thought I should send you a word. I know my posts come out of nowhere and are potentially over the top to most folks on this thread, but I feel a connection to you so I will still take that plunge! Do you know that I still pray for your and your wife? I didn't read through all the thread here as I am trying to avoid the forums and just stick to prayer; but it looks like there has been a lot of ugly drama, it sounds very hard. I will pray for you to find a way to hold your head above these dark waters and to keep having faith in restoration no matter how gross the circumstances are. From the little that I read here, it sounds like you are Hosea in this situation, down to the fact that she is feigning love for financial reward! Read Hosea again and again!

I had an amazing situation when I was at the lowest point I have been yet and was in Philly to see a friend who rents space from a church. She is not religious but arranged for me to talk to that priest because I was so low; he not only lifted me out of the pit but is now starting a chapter of The Way at my church in New York!, and out of the darkest moment of my life, so much good is going to come for so many people! -- the point being that if you stay in faith and trust God, you don't know how he will use your dark circumstances to bring light to others. Because if you really believe you are here on earth to know God more and more deeply, it doesn't matter how awful your wife is being. I know it HURTS, brutally bad! I know that the effect on our children is DEVASTATING and so so wrong. I cry everyday, but I cry to God only. Your journey to God is yours no matter what she is doing, and your response to what she does, if rooted in faith and love, keeps you close to God. Keep turning to God and tell him you want him to use you and focus on that, no matter what your wife is doing. I am going to paste below what that priest told me recently about the psalms -- I have been reading one each day and really praying it fervently and it ALWAYS IS EXACTLY WHAT I NEEDED THAT DAY to stay firm in my faith. Remember that God loves your wife too. He knows all the wrong she is doing and all the dark choices she is making, and he is calling her even if she can't hear it right now. I always tell my husband, "I know you made your choice, but I am here if you ever change your mind," and I say nothing else ever about anything, I just remove myself from any of his boundary crossing and go to church or go for a walk or pray in my room when I can. (Not always easy with kids around!) Slowly he is less angry. Still crazy but less angry. Anyway, I will keep praying for God to go into that tomb where your marriage lies dead and do the work of resurrection when the time is right. Here are the words from that priest, I hope they will help you --

My dear! Courage! Don't despair, it always comes from the Devil. He is a liar, "the father of lies", and we believe him everything, and how difficult instead to believe that our Lord is Risen from the dead! That He has already attained victory for us! That we won't remain in the cross forever! Don't be afraid! Don't despair, wait, hope in God, He will come, I assure you, give God a chance to enter into your own history as He did once with the people of Israel! Remember that Pharaoh resisted a lot before letting the people go! God has to send, not one, but ten plagues! Pray Evelyn! Read the psalms, they are all existential; your life is in their words. Read them and make them yours. I will pray for you and your husband. Just, don't despair, God is close to you, talk to God, convinced that He is listening to you.