Life's a Dance-One Step Forward and Two Steps Back

[melweb]

Ok, so the MLC crazy train has stopped again. At Melweb station, but who knows for how long.

H came home the night before and was telling me he was looking at townhouses with garages, etc. I said "okey dokey." (Really. I did,) I let him go on like it did not bother me and that its normal to have a convo with your H about moving out.
Anyhow, he asks me to sit as I have popcorn and then he says "Can you ever trust me again?" I say " its going to take time." He goes on about how it would be easier to leave because of guilt, and he launches into that Mt Everest analogy again. I just listen as he goes on, and basically tells me AGAIN he is not ready to give up on us. Then tells me "thanks for listening."

Before the night is over, I say A has to end and I need irrefutable proof. He says ok. In the morning he texts S15 that he is not leaving. (So now he involved our youngest and I am going to go full on Mama Bear if he starts jerking his chain too. Its one thing to do it to me, but something else entirely to do it to our kids.)

By last night he says he sent NC text to OW, unfriended and blocked her from fb and removed all contact info. And I can have acess to cell phone and email.

I am seriously guarding my heart this time. I have fallen for this too many times before. And as I said, I truly thought him leaving was for the best. For both of us. Idk whats going on in his head (nor do I want to) but I am looking out for me and my son.