Hi G. Sorry your so down brother It's ok to be down because this is sh1t and no one is telling you it's not
The suicide talk is a worry and you need to see a GP today. As an online buddy , please do this for your kids , once the thoughts are there it's not good
I think you know that we are on your side and we have all felt your pain I have very bad days still BUT I have more very good days. It's hard to see your dreams vanish but new dreams can replace them Your R with your D sounds like it's taking really positive steps and a few months ago you would have thought that was not possible
The travel sounds great and that not something you would have thought of 3 months ago so you are getting through this , just very slowly and that's fine. It takes as long as it takes but you have to help it with the positive attitude and moving forward with your life
You keep going on about your weight , firstly your working on it and secondly do you honestly think that's all the ladies are interested in ? Come on , read this board and you see fantastic women all the time and they don't go on and on about looks all the time. What's inside is way more important
Back to the bridge thing , don't let it lie and pass it off as moments lapse , go to the GP today , no excuses please.
G , I would love to go for a pint with you as we could discuss cars and bikes for hours , my R1 is sprayed in RED BULL colours with my helmet to match Your a decent man faced with a very very tough reality and this moment can be the moment you decide to have that dignity and draw a line in the sand and leave the old co dependant G behind.
When my W left I drew that line and she was gob smacked , couldn't believe I turned into Mr Perfect. ( her words ) overnight and while it still kills me sometimes , I never show her anything other than Mr Confident and Mr I'm Fine
Trust me G , your W will regret her actions one day , unfortunately that day may be years down the line and maybe it won't make any difference to you by then
Today my eldest is 21 , I got up at 6am , woke him and the crew up with bacon sarnies and a mug of tea and we opened his presents with all the family there. Tonight we are heading to a steak house and tomorrow out for a few beers.
His mom is calling in tonight for 10 mins. Who's the real loser G. I lost a W and she lost a family and life. You are the winner G , it's just you can't see it yet. You have an opportunity to grow and become the best G ever and the best dad that ever walked this earth , what more do you want. Grab it with both hands buddy and be thankfully you can.
G , I would like a post to see what the GP said , please , that's very important , lots of us care for G and his kids so please please go to the GP
Positive thoughts heading your way G The line in the sand is waiting for you to draw it
