I am not sure why but I am feeling really low I really do not know what to do I feel there's nothing I can do to make anything any better I have tried working on me....But I am scared ....I have gone out for a drive and I am sitting in my car on a fu(king bridge debating if I should jump end my pain and then I think about my kids and,think,how selfish would that be,

I need help I am scared if I contact my doctor or book in to the hospital then will this reduce my chance,of me getting custody or access to my children

I wanted to be able to fix this

I am sorry I am feeling sorry for myself


Me:48 W 41
M:18 T:26
2 D 18 & 4
2 S 17 & 13
Bomb: 20/7/2015 in house separation
D filed 06/17
Separate houses 10/17
D Final 29/12//17.