Mornings are the worst I wake up and everything seems clear I want write to her talk to her but I realise this is A complete waste of time

Ok so there is absolutely nothing I can do to stop this
I feel a complete sence of loss and total despair

I think to myself all the time how can the one person who said they would love me forever do this ...see me broken

I am totally and utterly [censored]

I do not know how I can walk away with an ounce of dignity

I don't want to get to the point of accepting this but accept it I must

I am so sorry to go on and on

I do not know what to do there is only one thing I can do and that is sell the house move out see my kids when I can and try to rebuild a life

Me:48 W 41
M:18 T:26
2 D 18 & 4
2 S 17 & 13
Bomb: 20/7/2015 in house separation
D filed 06/17
Separate houses 10/17
D Final 29/12//17.