Getting out of in house S (9)

[RAI]

I do know one thing that it helps me to talk about it here rather then to my W.

Actually, there is very good evidence from psychology research that talking about your problems is only helpful up to a point. Beyond this, it actually detrimental and keeps your focused on the problem. There will always be someone here to listen and you should never feel ashamed to come here, but I am not sure it is helping you get anything done and it is keeping you focused on the wrong things. You are in a rut because you are choosing to remain in a rut (as you acknowledged). Why not do one thing towards packing? Put one item into a box. Begin a pile of things you will be taking. The time you use to talk about things could instead be spent taking positive steps to ameliorate your sitch. I get your need to procrastinate - heck, I am doing it right now - this is all very unpleasant, but the work ain't going to do itself.

Do one thing right now. You will feel good about it. I promise.

I do feel like I am in a fog sometimes, that this is not happening.

It hits me like a 2x4 every day.

RAI