Detaching is the goal and I am working to do it in a healthy way, not an angry, bitter way. She is the mother of my baby angels and she was the woman I loved for the past 20 years. I am feeling detached as I see her because she is now the enemy that is dismantling my family and life.
I say that but I feel guilty as after speaking with my IC and learning that I may have had a medical depressive disorder for many years, and my behaviors in this state may have greatly contributed to the down fall of my marriage.
Today I am just focused on getting from one minute to the next as the anxiety attacks keep rolling in like waves to the shore.
I gotta stay strong for my girls I gotta move through this nightmare and wake up strong. I will make it I will make it.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
