Way Too Late Pt 3

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Thanks guys,
Our pastor had a sermon this last week about trusting in God "even if" not "only if", and that's where I have to put myself. Hopefully some plan will be revealed to me, I'm just not seeing it.

I just still miss my W terribly, although I know she's written me off and moved on herself. So it seems anyway. Of course I'm not sure what I can trust that I hear from third party sources, or if what the W is saying to them carries any weight.

She's obvious still hateful of me no matter what she tells other people as well. Nobody has any idea that she hasn't even let me see the dog for almost 3 months now. I just don't really say anything.

What's weird is I've never really gotten angry in all of this. I try, I work myself up - but then it fades and I'm just sad. 3 months yesterday as a matter of fact I left. Everyone's sitch is different, and with mine I still feel I've lost my soul mate. Granted, she doesn't feel the same. I've got a lot of things to consider and work through before I can completely move on. I think it's going to take a very long time indeed.