My story job 9140 (4)

[Jb9140]

Some days are better then others. I've been NC for 9 days, except in a few cases of text about boys. I'm having a hard time with detaching today and my head keeps spinning. I've got to focus on today. I think today I've been living in the past and dreading the future. This stuff is the most emotional pain i think Ive ever dealt with. My wife just seems to be so happy and moving along like we were never important too each other. That hurts even typing that out.