Getting out of in house S (9)

[vise82]

Hey OTW,

Yes the way words are used are interesting. She still call where we live home. It is home for now. But hardly a home with a broken family living in a house.

For the wedding. I have a hard time thinking that I should not be there. I have a hard time thinking that I am not part of the family. It was a big deal to not invite my parents to our wedding (they were suing me and my brother for a house brother and I bought). My parents action has caused a ripple in time that has even had an affect on this S.

I am not my parents. I should be invited to this wedding. But I know W parents are more concerned with how the pictures will look on their walls with me in the pictures then having the father of their grand kids at the wedding.

The rejection for not being invited is hard to take.

I feel like I gave up my family to be a part of hers only to have them taken away from me as well.

Its a wedding for W brother and nothing to do with W. Our S should not have had a factor on if I was invited. My kids will be there Why not me. She want me to celebrate Christmas with them but not be at the wedding? Really?

So then I ask myself why not?

Because W mother wants her daughter to meet a guy that is in the wedding party and "better then me"

There is another eligible bachelor in the wedding party. I actually talked to him at a W brothers stag and doe. But hear W mother and W talk about him, when we were still together you would think this guy was gods gift to woman.

Is that why I am not there?

I have been through this with another wedding of W best friend that I did not go to. Shure W talked a big game about how good looking the best man was and how much she wanted him but nothing happened. I imagine the same thing will happen this time.

Its just two days and one night. I can get though it. I am sure she will have expectation of having a better time at the wedding with out me there. Who know if she will? DBing says that I should not go, let her feel the loss. Even more so at a wedding. Where the focus is the complete opposite of what W is doing right now with our MR.