That is so hard! You felt this was such a special relationship and then he moves on like it was nothing. But, that doesn't mean it was nothing to him 'cuz some people soothe their pain by covering it with another relationship. They don't want to think about it 'cuz it's scary. Hey, it was special for you and that's what counts. I remember after I broke up with SDA Lady and a few weeks later she was on a dating site using photos I'd take of her lol. I was pissed...even though I'd ended it and she had every right to do whatever she wanted! I felt the same as you "is that all this meant to her?" A few months later when we got back together briefly she told me she'd done that to piss me off. She went out with a couple of guys but found that all she was doing was comparing them to me, "He's not funny like Whatis" "he's not smart like Whatis" "He's not handsome like Whatis" you get the drift. She decided that all she was doing was looking for another Whatis and she told me "I realized there is only one Whatis and so I stopped. I wasn't being fair to the guys" My point being you don't know why your ex bf is doing what he's doing...but it still hurts, I know. Better days ahead