Well, he is soothing whatever hurt he might have had in the arms of another woman already. It only took him maybe 2 or 3 weeks to do so since we ended things. I know some details because we have a mutual friend. I found he was making some poor decisions with her. I won't get into details, but it Looks like is in def in MLC.
I'm hurt. I woke up this morning and realized I am extremely hurt and disappointed. In the end, it is a good thing I got out and did not pick up my life and move for someone who really just needs a woman filler in his life. Even with this woman he can still say (not to me) I'm the best relationship he ever had. But that isn't his desire, a good R. Just someone who can be there all the time, at his whim.
Well, this is the kick I needed to let go. This put the fear in me that I don't can't realize what is real and what is fake. I feel like what he claimed we had has been extremely devalued. But I think in my heart of hearts I did know a lot of what he said was words with no desire to act on them. Which is why I did what I did. My gut was strong on that, and my gut was sadly strong on the fact that he was probably seeing someone else already.
My gut has never ever been wrong once in my life. I'm pretty darned intuitive. It was even a part of what made me a good ICU nurse. I knew before anyone else did when a patient was about to crash. The key is not ignoring your intuition. In any situation.
It's just to let him go and what I thought we had go.
