Ghostbusting This

[ATPeace]

Hi RD

Thank you for checking in on me

Things are fairly static here it seems as long as I am not having a conversation with my wife we seem to get along ok

I have noticed that she is doing more of her own things and is trying to be more independent will still ask my help in things when it suits her.

So let's keep the focus on me

Still been going to the personal trainer almost coming the the end of the second month and although I lost a lot of inches from my body on the last weigh in I do not feel I have been so determined this month had a couple of setbacks where I ate bad but overall I am trying to stick with the plan.

I hope I am still loosing weight I have a big ass and yesterday I took my son go kart racing I asked at the end if I would fit in the kart I was worried I would not fit the guy said yes definitely so I asked if I could sitting one and sure enough I could send looks like I will be booking myself in to do some racing with my children

I am in the process of trying to find a new councillor and I think I may have found one I will be seeing her next week

The world is a huge huge place and I want to think about traveling somewhere with or without my W visit somewhere new

I will take which ever of the children want to come with me but I want to do something different something fun ....do I ask her to come with me or should I just go without her.

Things between my daughter and I are much much better and this is a massive positive.

I am starting tie accept and realise that it was never about the housework or the amount of time that I spent with the kids and looking back on our marrage I believe that with how we lived and the choices we both made getting to the point of wanting to seperate was destined to happen regardless.

The difficulty for me is getting the balls to take the step of faith to know that I will find happiness, this is not something that anyone can help me with you can tell me I will be ok you can tell me you survived and went on to better it does not matter who I talk to ...I realise that until I am willing to take that step then I am stuck.

So when will I take the step of faith and what will it look like.....how,tomeat an elephant ...little by little

I have started to listen to some motivational clips on the Internet

Right now,I am feeling ok

I will check in again