I'm a Yorkshireman, living under a flag on convenience!
I thought your EXW had left OM? Sorry for any confusion. Yes, she sounds like she has turned in to 'ultra bitch'. I'm glad you and the kids are doing well, in the circumstances. They will see her in her own light soon enough.
I'm not looking for another R with somebody else right now. Maybe I should have said a new R with W. I'm trying not to mindread etc., but I do pick up on things and of course I still hope. With the kids, and what they say about missing me and 'Mummy not happy you were out on Friday', still makes me think that something could happen.
The loss business is difficult. I don't call or start convo, but how can loss be felt if you se each other twice a week? I still think she hasn't felt that. That's a key.
I don't feel that I'm hurting myself, I'm just trying not to fall in to a depressive trap. My focus, is fitness. I lost weight, but I need to get toned up now. So, why? First, it's for me. I want to look good and be around for the kids in years to come. Secondly, one day, somebody is gonna unwrap the present and I want them to be amazed, not repulsed!
The thing is, if someone came on to me, would I be able to hold a relationship with that person without dumping them in W came back? The answer is no, so I won't look until that feeling has gone.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
