I had a great week with the my boys and weekend with my kids. W called a couple times to talk to S3. He is never interested tho. Says hi. That's about it.
Almost every day he says he doesn't like mommy. He wants to stay with me forever. He tells it to her too. I tell him mommy loves him very much and he has friends there etc...
W likes to throw the blame on anyone but herself. The latest is it is d12 and s9 that got s3 saying that because she asked s3 where he heard it. Come on.
Them after meeting today to exchange the boys she asks if I still have that cat! I gave it away almost 2 months ago after I asked if she wanted it!
Them texts me S1 took 3 steps. I replied. Awesome did you get a video? Cause i got one the other day. And she replies all mad that I didn't tell her. I replied that i didn't feel it necessary as she had talked about him doing it all the time. And I get it doesn't matter. Bound to happen eventually.
I am so beyond over the bs and backwards crap that comes from this stranger I used to know. And for some reason beyond my comprehension, I still love her. Or believe I do.
It struggle between is it her I love. Or the idea of the companionship we had. Either way. I don't want the person she is now in my life in any kind of R way or M way.
As for myself. I have now gone a week without a cigarette. I decided last Monday I done. It's not easy haha. And I feel like I am eating way too much to make up for the cravings.
Also spring is here and I am able to get out into the yard and flower beds. Hopefully het planting soon and get into the veggie garden too. Make this place as nice as I can so I can hopefully sell it this summer.
The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.
