We had a great day yesterday at the meetup I organized. 3 other parents with their young kids showed up to our event at the science centre. It was nice having other parents to interact with while the 4 kids played together. All of us had a blast and we're going to do another event next Sat.
GAL continues strong: I meet up with an old university friend adn his brother last night after dropping D3 to her mom's, and we caught up. They gave me some good support and told me that the big positive thing is that I will now be able to find a partner that is much more compatible. I know there will be a lot of work for me till I reach that day. I have to focus on detaching and healing, understanding my patterns in the MR that contributed to the eventual failure, and accepting and loving myself.
Also yesterday my WW asked if we could discuss a few things when I drop D3 to her house, but as I had plans I told her I couldn't stay for long but offered to do lunch this week. She couldn't commit to lunch this week at all so no idea what she wants to discuss at this point. Let's see.
Today I also attended a Single Parents Social brunch - another meetup I'm a member of and met some other cool parents and made friends with another single dad who has the same separation timeline as me.
Nonetheless I'm still very lonely and deeply miss having my one and only mate, though I know that person is no where to be found now and she continues her own separate life with her boss/OM.
At this point I'm giving up hope on Reconciliation but I dread the dysfunction and challenge of co-parenting. I have to accept this as there's no other option.
The only thing I do now is to pray that the Holy Spirit touches her heart to forgive my wrongdoings and to one day have hope in our MR and seek R. The choice will ultimately be hers.
Me37 W33 T:8 M:5 D3 BD 11/2015 EA+PA w boss 12/2015 S 3/2016
Im stronger because I had to be Im smarter because of my mistakes happier because of the sadness Ive known and now wiser because I learned
