So I've been busy all day, just to distract myself. But I CANNOT shake the anxiety, of him saying a few days ago "we need to talk". He will be home tonight as work in the morning. And I feel as soon as he gets me alone he is going to leap straight into it. If I know it's coming, and I can sense what he is going to tell me. And I've heard it before, then WHY?
Hmmm, i would not egg it on, or draw it out of him. He is conflicted beyond belief between what he is thinking he needs to do and what he is thinking his duty is. Sounds stupid because they should be the same...buy he is so unhappy and confused and has no idea what to do (you should read that statement as 'so unhappy with who HE is and how HE feels about HIMSELF' and he us projecting that unhappiness to his marriage and ultimately, you).
You are trying to figure out what he us and what he is going to do, when 8n actuality HE has nonfreaking clue.
Deep breath. Find something pleasant to help take your mind off of this for a bit. he may comes home and says what you think, then may not, dont draw him into it. Get back to basics.
I hate that younare hurting...just thinkx just anshurt while till france, have you stwrted planning your perisian getawat yet, looking for things to do, etc. Might help with keepind mind on something besides this $hit.
