Continue to hijack and vent. I relate to your anger at the unfairness of your situation. The irrationality of husband and his inability to simply be fair.
I am coming to terms with the fact that I cannot get through to husband. He thinks what he thinks and has no motivation to commpromise. I am often questioning myself because his arguments are so unfair. But you know what? It really doesn't matter. I'm gonna do what's best for me and try not to even think about it.
I went out with group of friends last night. Had an OK time. Friday went to a divorce care meeting which was interesting. Very nice group but not sure if i am going to keep going. Have great plans for next weekend as well
One thing i realized..In my divorce care group many of the women are devastated because they are losing so much. Huge hones, fancy cars, financial stability. I had none of that to begin with. The first time I asked husband for child support money he started ranting and I never forgot these words he said. " nothing will change for you. You lose nothing. It's not like you had my affection". At first I was devastated. But now I realize he is 100% right. My life simply improved because now at least I am getting child support (when married I paid all kid expenses on a smaller salary) and him taking kids 4 days a month is more of a break then I ever had before. I am making new friends (something I neglected before) and doing more for me (getting hair done, make up focusing on things that make me feel good) I am also making important changes to my way of thinking and trying to instill new values to my children....
One day I will make housework a chore. But I don't know if I Wil ever be ready for that mountain
