Right after I posted yesterday my wife came up for her morning coffee. She said responded to my "Good Morning" and made small talk as she made her coffee. I felt pleasantly uneasy about talking with her as she made her coffee but did not let on. When she finished making it I was about to get up from the table because this is when she takes her coffee and goes back to her room. She came over and sat down at the table and continued to talk. At this point I'm shocked and uneasy to why she is doing this. I keep repeating to myself validate, validate, validate. She is telling me about work, I'm telling her about mine. I keep validating. Eventually the conversation changes to her next business trip. She tells me she is going to take extra 4 days and visit a national park with her boss.
I am uneasy about this but say nothing. She works none stop with him, travels with him and holds him in high regard. I cannot do anything about it and have to trust my wife. We had a discussion a year ago in which we both agreed not to cheat on each other before a divorce. So I trust her. She felt very bad that she cheated in '08, how she never wanted to be that kind of woman. I am terrified but will face my fear. I will not make my fears compound the problem. It will be what it will be. Peace
