Your H sounds really angry and seems like he's back in the fog again?
It's good that you have no expectations and you didn't snipe back at him. At the same time, please take care of yourself and kid, physically, emotionally, as well as financially and legally.
Rooting for you!
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.