Hang in there, Collin. Lots of similarities in us.
I made plenty of mistakes in my marriage, including porn addiction.
My wife made plenty of them as well. The difference is how you're walking with God, and if you're humble in heart. Pride kills. It really does.
Never doubt the power of God putting people back together after they've fallen off the wall. It takes time. Chart the course of your ship to stay close to your priorities, and do the right things in your life to maintain healthy relationships, good boundaries, and a healthy lifestyle. Continue to work on only the things you have direct responsibility for - your actions, how you react to your feelings, and your boundaries.
Keep posting. I'll be here.
M46, EXWW46 M15 T17 D20, S19, D13 M - Addiction since 1998 W EA/PA #1 2013/2014 W EA #2 June 2015... BD 1 Big D talk 9/15 BD 2 - EA/PA disc 10/30/15 Served D 1/22/16 Divorced 5/25/16 (yes, that fast!)