I know. This is no way to live. Last night she told me that I am much hppier as a person and am great with the kids. She feels that she has done me a favor by leaving me because it has made me that person I am today! She feels that things are much better now and it's the way forward for us...so much for 180..it's back firing on me. Tonight, after another good day out as a family, she said that she feels suffocated and I am around too much, even though she seemed happy enough for me to see the kids and take her to her hospital appointment. She wants me to take our D4 out tomorrow morning as she has to work. I will because I love being with her but then will no doubt tell me that I need to stay away for a few days.

I feel like crap. My new job is great, I feel in control and enjoy the company of my team...and then go home to all this. I just want to get on with her but she seems to play games and doesn't know what she really wants.

Should I just stay away from her for a while? I don't know how to detach as I have to see her in order to see the kids. How should I approach this?

I gotta keep breathing. Because tomorrow the sun will rise. Who knows what the tide could bring?