I had read this previously and it was good to read again. When I read it the first time, I thought to myself that I wished that I would have read it years prior. It does hurt, because inadvertently I know that I pushed her away emotionally and withdrew and so many other poor behaviors that were more to protect my emotions from the stresses and challenges in life and at home, but I was deaf to hearing her needs while we weathered the challenges.
So as I read this again, I focused on how the husband made changes, but they may not have been lasting changes as 4 years down the road, the WAW is convinced that D and moving on is the best option. Is that a sound observation?
Did the husband in the story fail to make permanent the changes that may have softened the wife's heart, or when she left, was it over for good at that point?
I know a lot of "what ifs" with my questions and I am sure I sound if I still just want a solution and to know that I can bring my family back together even if it takes some time I know that I can not make that decision, only hope to influence it in a positive manner. But the truth is, I am in a place that I want to be better, and my goal is to go that direction, because it was my journey for the past several years as I tried to pull out of my fog, but I am not sure if it is just for me, or for her.
I ramble on as the heart is all over the place. But thank you for continuing to support and share with me V.
It will click in my head I know it will.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
