I have been off as got family round. The kids and I had a great time, despite being very sad when they left. I'm very family orientated and it broke my heart to see them go but they don't live near me and I'm grateful to have seen them. I was close to my siblings but what happened to me as even brought us closer. H was a no show this week: well at the beginning of the week he says he couldn't come to see kids because he was injured and couldn't drive ( despite me finding out that the previous day he went to play for his hobby team!). Then in the middle of the week said he couldn't come because of his injury and asked me if I wanted to live it for this day ( I just replied that I couldn't drop the kids, but he was more than welcome to come, and guess what ni reply, no show!). Then today was his birthday, so got the kids to call him, he was very cold on the phone . Tonight was doing a training when he came to pick them up so couldn't speak to him. Then when he dropped them (I had guests at the time), I felt he was very rude as he ignored the guests! I guess someone was in fawl mood! It doesn't matter because I guess OW would have taken care of him today!
It still hurts to be in this situation, but if he can treat me like that after 12 years together I think I'm better off without him.