Cherry, choose a few select loved ones that will not judge you and lean on them. You need the support that you can get. And if they're pro-M, you could use them as sounding boards.
Your H sounds like he has major issues to deal with.
You can call me Dory/ Grl.
As a wise fish once sang,"Just keep swimming!"
It's no use to go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.
