I hear what you are saying. I've thought about it. I still haven't made a decision on sending it. Actually, I was so excited to write it and send it, believing it would give me this ultimate relief, I wrote the rough draft Monday night. Every night this week I had an intention of finalizing it and sending it, but when I went to do it, I really didn't have the urge. I think it was very therapeutic for now just to write it. So, I know it's there if I ever want to send it.
A part of me wanting to send it is because I know he might be hurting and I want him to know better that I understand why he made the choice he did. OTH, he may be completely over me and not thinking about me at all, and I would feel bad if I brought any memories back.
He has lots of pictures from over the years which he enjoys looking at. We looked at a lot of them together. Even of him and his ex GF. As a part of our LD R, we went eachother lots of pics and video's (clean, I swear. When we restarted talking after the first time we ended it, he told me he deleted every pic and video he had of me. Except one video, which was his favorite, just to hear my voice. I asked him why he has kept every one of his memories from his other R's and why he erased me. he said I was different and special, and he kind of left it at that. So did I. Maybe he does need to forget me.
His daughter's birthday is less than a week. She meant a lot to me too. I may just send a text from D8 and I wishing her a HB.
I wish I wasn't having such a hard time. This is way beyond my R mourning period, lol.
Anyways, off to AC this weekend. This is a MUCH needed trip. my girls, beer and music. That will be all I am allowing on my mind this weekend!
Oh, and I am going to a psychic party tonight. maybe I will get a little insight into the future
