Oh what a difference a day makes!

H admitted he is still having PA. And he is going to see her this weekend. I guess the lying got too much for him. I stayed calm and collected. Not sure what I actually said. I agreed a lot and said I understood a lot. He tried to tell she respects me, and I said I did not care what she thought of me. I wish I had thought of " Clearly she doesn't, or she wouldn't be having sex with my husband."And he told me she is afraid I will attack her. ( Not my style)

I am really beggining to hate this man that I have been trying so hard to keep. He is a person I no longer recognize. I so want to save this M, to be the lighthouse, but how? How in the face of lies, and cheating?

He cannot phyically leave this apt til June, so how do I act toward him? I am so hurt and confused right now.


Me 47 H 49 S18 S15
M 21
BD #1 11/09/15 ILYBNILY
I believe we are Piecing 1/2/16
Suspect EA/PA? 2/28/16
BD #2 "He tried, but needs passion." 2/28/16
Confirm PA 3/11/16, he's leaving in June
H leaves 5/7/16