Welcome to limbo land

[Cherry]

I wish you could too. I'm going absolutely mad with anxiety. Trying to prepare myself for the spew fest. But I feel he's catching me at a vulnerable time.

I put baby to bed and got in bed myself. But it's only a matter of time until he comes up to talk to me.

I know I need to validate. I know not to plead. But I feel getting to me when I feel like this and so vulnerable I just can't deal with it.

The way kid has been the past few days is not wanting to leave my side. Constant cuddles, and he's not particularly gone anywhere near h since he came home. Wouldn't even give him a kiss goodnight. So young but yet I feel like they know a lot and sense a lot. The mother in me just wants to protect.

I'm so tired, I haven't slept in days, I've barely eaten. I've just about survived every day