Ghostbusting This

[Vapo]

^^^^^^THIS^^^^^^ Ginger, that is gold, right there... Every word, golden...

[sandi2]

I will move forward when I am ready

For now I will not post for a while

Thank you

Ghost

That's it. He has made his choice. He will stop posting b/c he had rather stay where he is than to get out of it.

[Vapo]

... like a little child, gets offended and then pouts... I mean, I am rooting for the guy, I took him under my wing officially, but he does not budge. It is his right not to, but it does make me sad...

[Huddy]

That's frustrating. You're not going to make this any better by sulking pal.

[rd500]

Hi G. Your life mate , I hope it works out the way you wish

Positive thoughts for you and your kids

Take care. Rd

[ATPeace]

I think you may have misunderstood my post

I do not want to post because I do not want to frustrate and further upset you guys

I am not sulking I just know myself and yes I am codependent very I have never been alone

I come here looking for advice but I do not have the balls to accept what is and move myself forward with the advice that I have been given and until I am ready all I can see is me coming here posting about I could and I should but I will get no further and end up pissing of the actual people who actually care about me and this is not fair

Sure I want to keep posting in the hope that I finally see what I am doing to myself

I am looking for places to volunteer locally and will look for a new IC

Thank you

Ghost

[ATPeace]

Vapo you did and you have relied as has RD both you guys have been fantastic huddy and,not to mention everyone else who tried to help me

I wish we could meet so you both could give me a slap arrond the head and get me to realise and to wake up

I know more people here to talk to than in real life

[Vapo]

A journey of a thousand miles begins with 1 small step andit is these small steps that add up to the whole 1000. Just take the first small one and follow it with the second. It is all inertia from there...

[rd500]

Hi G. Just checking in. Hope all is ok. Rd

[ATPeace]

Hi RD

Thank you for checking in on me

Things are fairly static here it seems as long as I am not having a conversation with my wife we seem to get along ok

I have noticed that she is doing more of her own things and is trying to be more independent will still ask my help in things when it suits her.

So let's keep the focus on me

Still been going to the personal trainer almost coming the the end of the second month and although I lost a lot of inches from my body on the last weigh in I do not feel I have been so determined this month had a couple of setbacks where I ate bad but overall I am trying to stick with the plan.

I hope I am still loosing weight I have a big ass and yesterday I took my son go kart racing I asked at the end if I would fit in the kart I was worried I would not fit the guy said yes definitely so I asked if I could sitting one and sure enough I could send looks like I will be booking myself in to do some racing with my children

I am in the process of trying to find a new councillor and I think I may have found one I will be seeing her next week

The world is a huge huge place and I want to think about traveling somewhere with or without my W visit somewhere new

I will take which ever of the children want to come with me but I want to do something different something fun ....do I ask her to come with me or should I just go without her.

Things between my daughter and I are much much better and this is a massive positive.

I am starting tie accept and realise that it was never about the housework or the amount of time that I spent with the kids and looking back on our marrage I believe that with how we lived and the choices we both made getting to the point of wanting to seperate was destined to happen regardless.

The difficulty for me is getting the balls to take the step of faith to know that I will find happiness, this is not something that anyone can help me with you can tell me I will be ok you can tell me you survived and went on to better it does not matter who I talk to ...I realise that until I am willing to take that step then I am stuck.

So when will I take the step of faith and what will it look like.....how,tomeat an elephant ...little by little

I have started to listen to some motivational clips on the Internet

Right now,I am feeling ok

I will check in again