PTSD affects those with high IQ most of all, it is something to do with the way the HPA axis works, there are lots of confusing anxiety with depression. Bi-polar meds are paradoxical with PTSD that's why there is often rediagnosis.
From that which you say about your S then I sense it is PTSD and not bi-polar. The best treatment for it is CBT and Havening. Talk therapy doesn't help much at all. I have had some good effects with Narp recovery too.
I am currently meditating and using intermittent rest periods.
He has my prayers and I am including him with others I know who have this. It can heal with truth and bravery.
I was offered Sexorat and decided not to use anything because of my previous cancer history.
Extreme self care is warranted.
My darling Pink, I will manage this, although it is very frightening.
V
Freedom is just another word for nothing left to loose. V 64, WAW