Getting out of in house S (9)

[vise82]

Hey

Had my friend contact me asking how things are. Told him I was having a hard time not being invited to the W brothers wedding.

He tells me that what happens, his exes family has not contacted him since his D. Then he tells me its like you are starting your life over again. He did it and I can too.

I think that has sent me spinning a little. There is truth in what he said and it stings. Its got me down a little today.

There is a positive as that means I can shape my new life as I see fit. And I look at what it is right now and I don't get why I have to hide that I talk to my friend. Made me look at what is happening right now and honestly I want to pursue W. To the point she tells me again that it is over back off or she welcomes the pursuing.

It just seems that its my life If I want something I should just get it. If I want my W I should just go after her. If she says no. then that will be it. I can move forward. I tried.

I get this is how I feel right now and it will pass. But it feel like the right thing to do. Definitely not DBing though.