Thanks sotto. My c can't see me until May so left working by myself until then.

That's how I feel, it's in the early stage. Last time I sat back then did the begging, pleading and I guess a spot of denial inbetween. So this time I feel I have a bit better knowledge.

I still feel a bit all over, but I know I need to start thinking level. Thinking of my child and thinking of how I'm going to do this.

Start off, my 180s I know need to be a thing. I think I've let my emotions show when I've been angry with him, I'd ignore him- kind of treat him back the same way. I know this is going to make a difference

Me 26 H 25
M 4
T 5
Baby born 4/14
BD: 1/15
EA: 2/15
PA: 4/15
reconciling: 4/15
ILYBINILWY- 11/15
ILY-1/16
ILYBNILWY 4/16
ILY 6/16
ILYBINILWY 6/16
Baby due 3/17
BD 8/16