Alas he has no plan. G still hopes his W will wake up some day and come back running...
And no silver bullet in sight... Alas... So G, what are you going to do?
In the long months since you joined, there has been nothing but vague monologue from you. You had a great bunch in your corner and now it is tapering off. Because they (we) see no movement, frankly not even a genuine desire do get off your ass... Each and every post from you just contains a lot of I need to's and I realize I have to's... And it is leading you nowhere fast. And along with everybody else's you are killing your own moral as well.
Just let go, drop the god damn rope already. You will be fine without her, IMO you will do a whole hell of a lot better than you are doing at this point in time. I see no progress in you for the past few months. That just means that you are coming to a big step to a whole better place. Let go, let her the fcuck go. Why hold on to something that does not want to be held? Wanna know how you can fix your R? You can't. Your R was over at BD and she is not ready to a new R with you (if ever). So accept it and move the fcuck along.
Drop the rope, there is nothing on the other end, by holding on to it, you are just prolonging your pain, digging an even greater abyss. You literally had dozens of outstanding people (including myself) tell you the very same thing. LEt go, let the fcuck go, things get soooooooooo much better afterwards...
It's like 16 tons lifted from your chest, after long months you can actually breathe again and I do mean that quite literally.
Just take 1 god damn small step forward and not choke on your fcuckin' fear. What dafuk do you have to be afraid of?!? My friend you are living in hell for nearly a year now, do you think 5 degrees more will really matter, your flesh is already roasting. You did not do squat for you since day one. You are strying bo be super husband and then resent your W for not noticing and giving praise, even though WE ALL told you that is a doomed endevour. Did we feed you bull$[censored]? Or was there merrit to our words?
Face it, your R is gone, dead, kaputt, so what you are holding onto is an illusion, one that your W is only to eager to serve warmed up for you from time to time. You NEED TO GET OFF that roller coaster, because, you are coasting your ass to hell and people are bailing your ship (OTW), because they do not want to be dragged down as well.
From the moment I signed on, a few people saved my ass, and a few people that joined about the same time I did, saved my ass and my sanity and I vowed to give it back to others like I was. I try and lend a helping hand here and there (not nearly as much as Sandi, frankly I do not see where she draws her strength), but slowly I find myself repeating myself for the n'th time and all my words disperse in wind, leaving to visible mark on you.
So one LAST time, an abstract for you...
1. man up, stand up to your W,grow a fcuckin' pair 2. let her the fcuck go, drop the rope 3. get on with your life, you hit the snooze button for way too long... 4. go out in the real world and make some noise..
