My mind wont even let me go there, too much pain. I feel for you. I hope you can put some focus on something, anything else right now. If it was not that guy it would be another.
Do something nice for yourself right now. take care of you.
Me late 30's W mid 30's T 15, M 10 S4, S7 ILYBNILWY June 2015 In house S July 2015 W rings off Oct 2015 My ring off Feb 2015 Separate houses June 2016
