You are amazing! So many would have used the fact of going through such a tough ordeal as their excuse to "escape" through their addiction.

You are definitely a stronger man! You are going to be an awesome H to some lucky lady one day.

I know you have a lot on your plate, but I hope you will stick around. There are a lot of people who could use the wisdom you've gained.

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!