Absolutely, I need to make sure that my actions are consistent, that I have integrity, and that I can hold my head up high fearing nothing. That's the kind of man I want to be when this is all said and done. That's what I want my eulogy to say; not "well he tried really hard but he just couldn't get over it". I'm not there yet, I still fear tge loss of my MR, but that's my goal. I just really need to let go and trust in God and in myself.
