Part of me, a growing part, thinks I should just give up. Send him a text telling him to file and that my lawyer will be in touch.
I am right there with you in that feeling. We want the pain to stop and see that as a way to make it. It probably won't. I like to look at it this way.
Option 1) I say I want D, and we move towards it. What happens? I detach, GAL, 180's, make myself a better person for me and any future R and build a life for myself and kids.
Option 2) I don't say I want a D, continue to DB and fight the good fight. What happens? I detach, GAL, 180's, make myself a better person for me and any future R and build a life for myself and kids.
Ultimately, I see my actions as the same regardless. However; option 2 leaves the door open for someone whom I know I do love (despite the way I feel today and this crazy roller coaster we are on) Maybe one day my WW will be willing to do the work to rebuild our M. Either way I need to rebuild myself.
I'm no Vet, just how I feel...most of the time, lol.
