Thank you sadhub. I see what you mean, fear creates the darkness. Funny thing is I am fully prepared for a drastic change. If she gave me the choice I would move with her to switzerland! Where I don't know anyone, the language, or anything else. But I am learning french and would love to move there. I do fear that she is letting some immaturity affect her thought process on everything.
Tomorrow I'm going to a movie premier with a friend so that will get me out of the house for a bit. I also have a train session at the gym tomorrow after work. Doing everything I can to stay busy.


First date 12/24/13
M 3/12/14
BD 2/8/16
Working on it alone since 2/8/16
Doing things wrong 2/8/16
Doing things different 3/12/16