The thing is that Im trying to get on my own two feet but Im in a very very tough position right now. Ive expressed to him that I can handle things and he says ok...but to be honest I do need his help and while I dont ask, when he gives it I simply say thank you.
I was told if the topic of D comes up to be honest that it's not what I want but to validate his thoughts/feelings on the subject - which is what I continue to do.
Everyone tells me I need to be angrier, and I'm too nice. Am i being too nice by validating and not arguing and defending?! I pull back and then its wrong, then I listen to him and validate and thats not great either. So what do I do? I'm working on letting go, I really am.
But I don't know how letting go exists while being hopeful and having faith that we can rebuild and begin a new M with each other.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways."
