Doing better....Oh wait

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So following up from my last post with an update..

After last post kids and i went to the campground that W parents own and we have a camper at, yes we still kept it.

As i have said before her family really likes me, I also run the concession/snack shop at the campground and easter weekend was the first weekend open. Kids and I had a blast doing all of the easter activities. W dad was dressed up as easter bunny and they got to play with cousins.
My mother wanted to make easter dinner and told me to bring everyone. So i through it out there to wife and she accepted quickly.
Kids and i got back in town and did a few things then went and picked her up. We all ate dinner together and then i sat down at bar counter while mom did some cleaning up. W sat next to me and the three of us talked and joked like we never missed a beat.
Starting getting late and we packed up to head back to her place as the kids were stating there. I helped get them into bed then went on my way. W and i spoke quickly earlier in the evening about spring break stuff for the kids, so after i got home i sent her a text about an amusement park. She said she wanted to check weather, few minutes later we had a plan for two days later.

The following day the kids wanted to go spend some money they got from easter and wanted me to meet them. W was coordinating with me about it and then asked me if I wanted her to pick something up that we spoke about as hse had some time. Very surprised I accepted. ending up meeting them for a quick bit then went on the way as the next morning was the amusement park

Remembering what her friend told me about keeping things upbeat and good communication i made sure i was upbeat and happy all day. I had to catch myself a few times to make sure i was living in the moment and not wondering or overthinking.

We left park and stopped to eat and had a great time. Lots of laughing with kids. After that kids both fell asleep and we talked the whole way home. She did a lot of opening up and i made sure to hold the conversation. she shared some things with me that i would love to be able to do with her but think I may have to be patient on that.

Got home and put kids in bed and normally when i leave she walks over near the door where i am leaving from and we say a quick by as i am walking away. I didnt want that this time so i stood still and looked at her until we caught eyes for a minute then said good bye. She looked at me and and then looked away. Overall the two days together were good she even said she had a good time.

The following day saw each other again for some kid stuff for a few minutes. We had a good interaction. The next day took kids to the beach for a bit and was the only day we didnt really interact.
Friday morning I had to drop mom at doctors for a medical procedure. W started seeming a little different at this point.
But didnt look into it too much. After got mom back home and settled I got a call from W saying she was taking kids up to a carnival by our houses and wanted to know if i wanted to meet. I went over and had some fun with them. Took a couple pictures of the 3 of them on a ride for her. I sent them to her after i got home and we text for a minute or two and she told me a i did a good job.

then i noticed a little pull away again this weekend.

Exchanged a few texts today but nothing big.


So at this point my observations are this. i am trying to keep our communication open and fun. We have no R talks. I noticed i prob need to back off a bit now and see what happens. By back off i mean not initiate things but still act the same way when we are around each other.

My mental state..it is hard having that much interaction and not getting expectations up to high. I do crash a little after.

I really dont know what to think right now. She could just really be enjoying having fun no matter who it is with, she might be seeing things differently or not. No way to know. So i am just going to keep moving along.

I do worry if i am pushing to hard at times but right now i think I will see what develops from her and me pulling back a bit.

Anyway, hope this is at least interesting encounters! LOL