Unsure of what's next

[iwad]

I REALLY appreciate the positive support Cherry and cubebot. I just don't know how to handle the yo-yo.

In the past when a relationship has ended (either by my initiation or vice versa) it has been pretty clear that the one leaving was in fact... leaving.

I don't understand how someone can say "I want a divorce" and then do this will I won't I dance after. If I were ever to make that decision I feel that I would be firm in that regard and not waver.

My H keeps repeating the mantra of "I don't want a D, but I don't know what else to do". I still don't really know how to absorb that. If you don't want it and you still say you love me (I have not said it back per DB rules) then why are YOU leaving?!?!

Cherry, I feel like your situation is not unlike mine in that there has been a lot of back and forth since this past summer.

Part of me, a growing part, thinks I should just give up. Send him a text telling him to file and that my lawyer will be in touch.

The waiting and unknown is killing me. I feel like this next call will be the last and that he put it off because he is nervous to move forward...

Am I reading too much into this all?