anime92, My friend that darkness is called "Fear" We fear the past because it led us to our situation, we fear the future because we don't want to repeat the past, and we lose focus on the present moment. The present is the moment that we get to make a different decision. Use the lesson in DR about cheeseless tunnels. That can simplify your decision to act. You still may go down a tunnel without cheese, just don't continue to go back hoping to find it once you establish it is not there.
I know what you mean by "the darkness", as that was the same response I had when I was challenged to look within. This was the quote that was shared with me in response.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~ Marianne Williamson
Take the time to fight through the darkness. That is where you will find your light and then you will gather the strength to complete this journey.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine