Hi Shotgun, I had a brilliant day yesterday but not so good today, so it equals itself :-). My GAL is none existent as I'm trapped for cash since I went for legal separation. I prefer to spend the few monies I have left on my kids than me as they need to feel that they still can be able to get a life!. My contact with H is to the minimum, and I'm slowly starting to realise that none of this is my fault. I still love H, but I think it's the one I married not the one he has became!. I think I want him because I'm afraid of being unattractive and not fun. I don't know how to let my head down, laugh and appreciate life.
My job is mainly female orientated, so I don't get much of a change to meet opposite sex. Going out is difficult as the cost is mounting, and I don't want H to babysit because last time I asked him to, he later threw it back at my face that it was convenient for me to ask him to look after his own kids!
I'm plodding along with my life.It's not as happy I'd like to but it definitively as bad as I thought it'd be a year ago. I though my life was over, it isn't as it's taking me on a different road. Can't say I'm ovr the moon by this new direction, but I have to make the best of it.
